Today Hashem has asked me to speak about a Torah portion which is completely out of character. I’m not really sure why He wants me to do this but I’m following His instructions as I always do. Hopefully this won’t get me into trouble.
The other day I turned on my phone after Shabbos and I saw a two-minute video by a Rabbi on Facebook giving his commentary on the twelve spies — the ten that were punished and the twelve that were sent into Israel to check out the lay of the land so to speak. I watched this two-minute video which had a take-home message of “Think positively!” The ten spies were thinking negatively and you need to learn to see the glass as half full, not half empty. That was this Rabbi’s commentary and the take-home message for the punishment of the ten spies.
Hashem said, “Lori what do you think?” I said, “I believe in positive thinking Hashem. I’m a big proponent of that but it seems like a weak commentary. I don’t know if it’s appropriate.” He said, “Lori, do you know why I ordered twelve men to go in and check out Israel?” I said, “No I don’t.” (Now you’re seeing that I don’t know much Torah — the written Torah.) and he said, “Because the children of Israel demanded it.”
Right there I realized what he was saying — that they showed lack of faith — and so I checked it out online. I went to Chabad.org to see what the story was behind these twelve spies. Sure enough, it said that they demanded a team of scouts to go in and check out Israel after all that Hashem had done for the Jewish children, all the miracles that they had seen and being freed from bondage. They showed a complete lack of faith in God by demanding a team of scouts in the first place. But on top of that they came back and it’s said they exaggerated the danger. They riled all the children of Israel up into such a frenzy that they wanted to go back to Egypt and become slaves again. Wow. I think that’s a little beyond negative thinking, don’t you?
I read the story and I said, “Wow. This is severe.” and he said, “Yes.” I thought about it and I thought this Devar Torah is very misleading. (Devar Torah meaning words of Torah.) I think the Rabbi is very learned and he knows his Torah but to say that it had to do with not viewing the world as a glass half full instead of half empty was really short-sighted. It smacked of the secular world that wants you to believe all you’ve got to do is think positively and God will bless you. Think positively and everything will go your way. It’s fallacious. It’s not true. As a matter of fact my work doing this is very difficult. There are many mornings I feel very down, very negative. Hashem instead of being angry with me or punishing me God forbid, He lifts my spirits, He gives me visions every morning and He tells me every day, “You keep going. You will win.” He’s amazing. He’s wonderful! He never ever punishes me when I get down or negative, thank God. Thank you Hashem!
I hope you enjoyed these words of Torah, very unusual for me. Hashem knows everything so He knows why I’m doing this in the first place. I hope you enjoyed it. May there be peace in our world in our time. God bless you.